Monday, November 28, 2011

I Feel Like I Have Never Ever Done This Before...

Pregnancy.

I feel like I have never, ever done this before.

Which is crazy, right?

My youngest is 15 months old. My house is filled with four biological children, who clearly didn't drop in from outer space or hatch from eggs.

Yet this fifth pregnancy, in the 22nd week, still feels so alien to me, so strange.

I still don't have "my pregnant Mama groove" on yet.

It's like I've never been pregnant and tired and had to go to the grocery store before, or had to teach school while I feel distracted, or changed a diaper while my pregnant stomach was feeling extra nauseous, or searched for a maternity dress that was both modest and pretty....

Instead of feeling like I'm on well-traveled ground, I'm constantly shocked that this process of "co-creating a new soul with God" isn't easy.

Mommy Mary, pray for me! This Advent, give me your generous heart!

3 comments:

  1. Ugh! I have no idea of what you're going through, but I'll be praying for you!

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  2. I started following your blog back in July, and was overjoyed that not only do we share a love of Carmelite spirituality (my parents are both Third Order), we are both pregnant at the same time! Little Kolbe is only my second, but I'll be praying for you nonetheless.

    Also, if you're looking for some nice, modest pregnancy dresses:
    http://www.shadeclothing.com/shop/dept_category.jsp?FOLDER%3C%3Efolder_id=2534374306256662&ASSORTMENT%3C%3East_id=1408474395917465&bmUID=1323546185891

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  3. We're in the same boat. I'm 30 wks with #5 and my #4 will be 18 mos this week. And we've also had the spina bifida scare and now it is the skeletal dysplasia scare (I think I am scaring my drs with my serenity that all will be well, no matter what!). I'm so exhausted! It has been a trying pregnancy for me. I'm just taking things one day (or even one HOUR) at a time. Praying for you! Please pray for me. :)

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