Thursday, November 8, 2012

Anti-Harried Wife Syndrome, Part III--Everyone Can Run

Three weeks ago, I started running. I finished my morning prayer and visualized taking down my new Wal-mart tennis shoes and going for a run.

I'm the least athletic person I know. I didn't even own a pair of tennis shoes for 5 years.

My "run" is very light. I run in the street in front of my house. I don't even go around the block in case someone wakes up early and needs me.

It feels incredible. It's so great to do something outside of a "gym class" where someone else is telling me how far and how fast to go.

I like being out in the morning and watching the sunrise. I like the extra energy I have during my long day.

There's something else, I love have a "steady template" to know instantly if something is "off." After Hurricane Sandy, I could barely run. My back was very tight and sore. I realized how much stress I'd been under during the storm. I made sure to be extra gentle with myself that day--both physically and emotionally.

Today, the first day after the election--I couldn't run at all. Nothing. It was a beautiful day. The air was perfect. I felt great to be outside, but there was nothing. My back was so tight, it turned into an all walking day for me. I thought "Wow, this election was more stressful than a Hurricane!"

I'm usually very out of touch with my emotions. I don't realize I'm stressed until I start snapping at kids or sobbing over some minor hiccup in my day. I'm so grateful for my new morning run--however short--because it lets me "check in", figure out where I am on the stress meter for before resuming responsibility for six precious souls in my care.


Jen said...

I'm so happy for you!!

L. said...

Running is great.

And your posts remind me of the super-religious mothers' group I joined out of desperation when I was at home with babies in a city with no family and few friends. Part of their message was, "Jesus loves you and he wants you to love YOURSELF, too, so put on those pretty clothes and a little makeup, eat healthy and exercise!"

I'm sure some of them would have been horrified to know I viewed this as a message of feminist empowerment, and thought, "YES!!!"